Jesus in Disguise

“Each one of them was Jesus in Disguise.” –Mother Teresa

I was blessed to be able to spend a week with Divine Shepherd once again in the village of La Avenzada. The week was incredible, mostly because it was so easy to see God everywhere. During the week we were able to go on some house visits, host a chicken soup lunch for the community, spend lots of time hanging out with the people in the community and playing with kids, had bible studies, built relationships with the youth and at the end of the week got to take them on an overnight retreat.  

 Last summer, the village leaders met with Divine Shepherd to request that they start up some kind of youth program. It was very evident that God was behind this because the door to mentor these youth and build them up to be strong leaders in the faith was opened wide for us. All we had to do was agree to walk through it. Because of that meeting, a youth group was assembled, leaders for the group with found, and since then they have been meeting together every Monday since February for a bible study. 

A few weeks ago, Cassie and I traveled up to La Union to visit Beth and Cheyenne, two other interns that have been staying up there all summer. During this visit we got to go to one of these bible studies. Beth had been working with the girls all summer, yet they were still pretty reserved and she struggled with getting them to answer questions or respond at all. However, at this particular study she decided to read them a devotional after finishing their usual study. We watched as the girls listened intently, glued to every word she was reading. These girls don’t have access to devotionals and are just learning some of the foundations of our faith. After leaving, Cassie and I talked about how difficult it must be for them to personally grow in their faith being in a community without many Christian leaders. It’s so important that they not only learn the foundations of their faith but also know that there is so much more that being a Christian has to offer. Knowing how much Jesus is completely in love with you and that we have access to a personal relationship with Him and then experiencing that is life-changing. After witnessing this, God gave us the idea to get some kind of daily devotionals for these girls so that they would be able to use them at home individually and then also talk about them and grow together as a group. We thought these might be able to serve as guides for them as just opening the bible and reading it can be very intimidating for new Christians. God provided and we were able to get a book for each of them sent to Sean to bring down just in time before he left. 

Each night in La Avenzada, we met with the youth where we would play silly games, sing, pray, get to know each other, and spend some time in the word learning together. One night all of us girls got to make chocolate chip cookies (homemade cho chip cookies aren’t a thing here) together and then have a bible study afterwards. At this bible study, we talked about the importance of spending time daily in the word and with God. We got to present them each with their new book and do the daily devotional together so they understood what it was and how to use it. When the bible study was over, I walked away for a minute and returned to find the girls sitting there reading their books and already writing notes in them. 

The girls in the youth group with their new devos

As we spent more time together, we opened up with one another and as each day passed, the girls seemed to get more and more comfortable with us. On Friday we all left for Mariscos where we stayed at a retreat center, similar to a camp for a night. In the afternoon, we got to go to the lake with all the youth. For many, this was their first time at a lake or even swimming. They were hesitant at first, some refusing to let go of the stair railing but by the end, they were jumping off the dock, squealing with laughter and having us wait a few feet away from there as they practiced swimming to us underwater. Glancing around the lake, I felt surrounded by joy as I saw people that couldn’t speak the same language, laughing hysterically together, splashing each other, and swimming together. 

Swimming with the girls in the lake in Mariscos

During the retreat, we got to eat delicious food, play lots of fun games and icebreakers, have a worship service, and have sessions where we focused on some topics more in-depth. As the week and retreat progressed, the girls began answering more questions, volunteering to read to the group, even offering to pray for the group, something they would have NEVER considered doing a few months, even weeks earlier. God used us to encourage these individuals in their faith, to build them up, to counsel them, to be role models in the faith. We are nothing near what strong Christian role models should be, we mess up daily, and we don’t practice what we preach. We are from thousands of miles away and we don’t even understand each other when we talk. But he STILL uses our imperfect selves. He has been doing this since the beginning, David was an adulterous, Moses was a murder, Paul made it his goal to get rid of all Christians. But God still made examples of these people. The same God who used unworthy people is STILL doing that with us which makes His power even more apparent. The growth in these youth was awesome to see and we learned a lot from them as well. 

Saturday came quickly and soon enough it was time to say goodbye to our new friends. As I’ve talked about in previous posts, these relationships founded around Christ are inexplicable, unique bonds that hard to understand for those that haven’t had a similar experience. Our group made a line leading to their bus and as their group loaded onto the bus, they went down the line so that we could all get a chance to tell everyone goodbye. Being towards the end of the line I was able to watch as faces turned from smiles to tears once hugs and goodbyes were exchanged. It was like a chain reaction as the difficulty of goodbyes spread down the line from both us and them. It was obvious that God used us to impact each other’s lives in some way or another. It may have been different for every person but He worked through those relationships and somehow everyone involved learned something or was able to take something from this experience. 

Everybody that attended the youth retreat

My new friends in the youth group

As Christians we are always saying “I saw God in you,” “God is working through you,” “He is in us” blah, blah, blah. And while those are worthwhile things to say, I think often times we are saying that without really thinking about what that even means. It’s not some insignificant thing we should be taking for granted. It’s not something we could be casually brushing off or saying just as a means to complement someone. GOD IS ACTUALLY IN US. He sent His spirit to dwell IN US, to help up love and serve in ways we never could otherwise. If you take a moment to take a step back and really think about it, that’s crazy. The God who made the universe decides to chill in us and make himself apparent to us through ordinary people around us. We don’t see Him face to face yet but He gives us each other at the right times just when we need it. 

It’s amazing what happens when you are all united for the sole purpose of loving God and loving others together. Though we didn’t do it perfectly all of the time, the team I worked on this week was really special. Mainly because I was blessed to have the chance to see them do things and then be like, “Whoa, thank you God for being there for me through them.” I was able to feel his presence and receive the comfort, love, or support I needed through those around me. 

There were so many times everyone should have been crabby through being exhausted and weary from going all day, hiking all the way up and down the mountain, sleeping in tents, going days without showering, or not having any time to themselves. But instead of being short with each other, God was there being cheerful, laughing off the circumstances, and offering to help do undesirable chores. When I was upset, God was there to listen to my problems. When we were stranded late at night in a boat with no lights in the middle of the lake, God was there to point out the beautiful stars or to keep the conversation going to help people calm. When we had awkward encounters with the youth because we ran out of things to say, God came up with an activity to do or a handclap game to bring everyone together. God was in the eyes of a yearning child as they came up asking me for the kids bible and sat with me for an hour asking for story after story. When there were children that needed some extra attention, I watched God scoop them up in His arms, throw them in the air over and over even when exhausted, play tag for way longer than anyone wants to, or tickle them until they overflowed with giggles. I saw God as he spoke words of truth to the youth. God was there when I observed the youth answering questions with words of wisdom or exhibiting leadership qualities. God helped to lead us through the steep, jungle, muddy mountain paths so that we knew where to go. When we were on house visits, I watched as God prayed for His people, that they may know Him better. 

Though I didn’t get to see God face to face, I was given glimpses of Him all over the place through those surrounding me. He was in all forms, in the joyful, welcoming people of the village, in the faces of the innocent, trusting children, in the shape of my teammates as they did their best to love in the way He did. God is everywhere all of time but it can be easy to miss when He’s in the form of these seemingly small moments and people. Yet, if your eyes are opened to all of that around you, you see that those moments really aren’t that subtle at all but that instead the one who holds everything in His hands is standing right in front of you.

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20

No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us. 1 John 4:12

In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:16

God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. 1 John 4:17

The awesome team that God assembled for this week

Loved having this little guy attached to my hip all week

Chicken soup lunch for the whole community'

Reunited and it Feels so Good!

I’d been looking forward to this week since the day I got here because we were going to get to go with a group to the village of La Fragua where my church works twice a year. La Fragua is one of my all-time favorite places mostly because it’s full of some of my all-time favorite people. Every time I spend some time there, I end up leaving in a way better mood than when I first arrived. The people there are so full of joy and love that it just bubbles over onto me and leaves me feeling uplifted and cheerful. God knew exactly what He was doing when He planned out my summer. He knew to schedule this week in the perfect time just when I was really in need of some encouragement.

The reoccurring theme that God kept showing me throughout this entire week was the incredible power of relationships that He orchestrates. Over and over He brought up instances in which I was left standing amazed by the strength of the friendships formed here regardless of the small amount of time together, the fact we don’t speak the same language, and the thousands of miles that separate us. The odds seem all against us when we dwell on those factors and the fact that groups only come from a week at a time. It seems as though these is no way that we can make any kind of difference in each other’s lives. But I now see that those thoughts are lies. They come from the one who does all that he can to discourage us and make us believe we are not enough and can’t be used by God because of our inadequacies. But God is so much bigger than those things and instead He chooses to use unlikely circumstances to connect us. He works through those connections and allows us to impact each other in ways we don’t even understand. 

Our first day in this village was spent visiting the families who live in houses that CALMS built previously. Each family we visited greeted us with smiles on their  faces, eager to invite us into their homes. They graciously welcomed us in with open arms and were excited to see those they recognized from past trips. I was especially pumped because we were able to visit my friends, Jenny, Roberto, and their 2 year old son, Fabio. St. Marks built their house on my first trip here last year in March. This is my 3^rd time visiting their house since, and each time I see that they have added some other new home improvement. They take such pride in their home and have done an amazing job with what they started with. They plastered their walls outside making them smooth, painted them, added a beautiful garden in front, and are now tiling their entire bathroom. Even though it was early in the day and we just popped up unexpectedly, Jenny welcomed us in cheerfully. I loved being able to catch up with them and be entertained by little Fabio. They told me they’re hoping to come up to the school and visit me soon which I would just love. 

Relationships were also formed through the time spent with Ana and her family, the family that the group was building for this week. The smallest acts of love and kindness can make a big difference and through those, a friendship was created with them. She cried as she thanked us for the house and told us that we were welcome there anytime, that the doors would always be open for us.

 During VBS the last day, I was surprised to see the entire family we had built for in March. I wasn’t sure if they’d remember me but as soon as the mom saw me, she gave me a huge hug. As we started chatting, it felt like no time at all had passed. 

It was incredible to see the lasting impact made between those of us returning after visiting this village in the past and the children who come to VBS. They remember us and I was flooded with hugs, pictures, smiles, and laughter from my little friends that I had made on previous trips. During my first weeklong trip here, VBS was my favorite part. I loved hanging out with the kids and getting to love on them through playing games, helping with a craft, or reading a bible story. Sure I had made a bunch of little buddies that I loved and hoped would get something out of our time together but did I truly realize how God may use that to affect them? No, definitely not. But this time around, as Cassie and I hugged one of our middle school girls goodbye, she hugged us more tightly and as she looked up to tell us she loved us, we noticed tears in her eyes. Once again I was shown that God is bigger than I give Him credit for and is always up to something. Through our simple, silly conversations with these girls, it’s clear He is doing bigger things than we know. You never know how the smallest act of kindness may influence someone or how God may use that to plant a seed. Maybe a smile and hug was just what the child needed because their parents are never home and they don’t get that affection often. Maybe the small bracelet you give someone makes all the difference because it will serve as a reminder that someone cares about them. Maybe a simple prayer was just the encouragement someone needed to go on. We just never know how God will chose to use our willing hearts but we need to trust that somehow He will.

The hospitality, joy, and love shown by the people in La Fragua is amazing and I thank God that He has shown me himself through these relationships. I’ve been given a more vivid picture of his love that I can actually grasp. Through this, it becomes evident that He is living and actively working through others. My friends here are teaching me how to genuinely love others through actions and I believe that that is one of the main reasons God placed me here this summer. They love with their entire selves; the way they greet us with excitement, a “Mi Amor!” a huge hug, and a kiss on the cheek, the way they go out of their way to give us words of encouragement, the way they invite us into their homes and lives, even though we may not have much to add to the conversation, and the way that they prepare food and drinks for us, making us feel right at home though they may not have a ton of extra to spare. I’ve grown up hearing about how others can see God working through you but now that has taken on a whole new meaning for me and I actually get it. God has created beautiful people in La Fragua and has inspired me to live out His love through being a recipient of their love. I am so blessed by my friendships here.

“Does it make sense to pray for guidance about the future if we are not obeying in the thing that lies before us today? How many momentous events in Scripture depended on one person's seemingly small act of obedience! Rest assured: Do what God tells you to do now, and, depend upon it, you will be shown what to do next.” –Elisabeth Elliot

 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. Hebrews 10:24-25

Eternally Focused

Week 2

That week there was a group from St. Paul’s Lutheran from Decauter, IL working in Gualan so we tagged along with them for a few days. They were building two houses and running a VBS in the afternoon for about 300 kids! After the group left, we were surprised with a trip to the zoo with our friend Nancy and her English students and also got to spend some time hanging out with some friends in La Fragua holding their cute babies! 

One of the houses  being built in Gualan was for Candida, a woman in her 80’s who lives with her daughter. She was so excited for her new home saying she had never imagined that she would actually receive a house like this. The other house was being built for Clara and her five children. One of my favorite things is getting to be a part of the joy filled celebration that comes along with a house dedication. Receiving a CALMS house has the potential to completely change a family’s life. On these special days, the room is filled with a sense of excitement and pure happiness. I love watching the faces of the owners as they cut the ribbon and unlock the door to a brand new home and a new life. 

Even more importantly though, these families are being shown the love of Jesus as the groups do their best to be His hands and feet. Could all of the Guatemalan workers do this themselves and probably be even more efficient than us Americans? Most likely. But if the money was just sent from the U.S. and no one came down to partner with them here to build, no relationships would be formed. I saw a quote the other day that said, “You may be the only Jesus someone ever sees.” You just don’t know how much someone has been exposed to Jesus so it’s important that we try our hardest to show people how much He truly loves them. We give our time and effort in hopes that people are able to at least grasp a bit of how much He really cares about them. The pastor at these dedications told the families not to thank the teams but to thank God primarily because He is the one that made this all possible. How crazy is it that He decides to connect us all in these awesome ways in which He allows us to be the answers to someone else’s prayers who lives thousands of miles away? He knows what we need and allows us to be involved in each other’s at just the right moment.

Most of all, love each other as if your life depended on it. Love makes up for practically anything. Be quick to give a meal to the hungry, a bed to the homeless-cheerfully. Be generous with the different things God gave you, passing them around so all get in on it: if words, let it be God’s words; if help, let it be God’s hearty help. That way, God’s bright presence will be evident in everything through Jesus, and He’ll get all the credit as the One mighty in everything-encores to the end of time. 1 Peter 4:7-11

At VBS, we had the pleasure of meeting this woman, Pancha, who claims that she is 45. ;)

 Everyday she would walk up to each member of the group thanking them for being there, giving them God’s blessings, and telling us that she would see them in Heaven. She was persistent and unrelenting in her efforts to proclaim that Jesus was currently up there preparing a house for her and for the rest of us too. This woman was completely Heaven-minded which gave me the realization that I don’t live in that mindset at all, even though that’s exactly how we are commanded to live here on earth. In Colossians 3:2 it says, “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.” Philippians 3:20 says, “But there’s far more to life for us. We’re citizens of high heaven! We’re waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, who will transform our earthly bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He’ll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skills by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him.” Pancha is convinced in her eternal home and lives her life based off of that hope. I realize that all too often I invest too much into my life here on earth which actually pretty dumb since this life is only temporary. Instead I should be keeping an eternal focus and living in a way that reflects that there is an eternal, perfect, home with Jesus open for anyone that knows Him. 

Candida and her new house

Candida and her family in front of her new house

Clara and her family at the house dedication with the group

Visiting friends in La Fragua

Surprise trip to the zoo with Nancy's students

Jumbled Thoughts from San Pablo

I can’t believe that it’s already been a week since we got here! I wasn’t really planning on blogging this summer but God is already doing some way cool things here and it just doesn’t seem right not to tell everyone about it. Don’t be expecting an award winning piece of writing these are just a few of my jumbled thoughts from my first week here.

Cassie and I arrived here last Saturday and as soon as we pulled into the boarding school, it immediately just felt like home again. We were talking about how incredibly different it felt than last year. A year ago at this point we were filled with so much uncertainty and fear which has now been replaced with excitement and relief to be back in a place we love.  

We were excited to hear that there was a group going to San Pablo this week and that we got to tag along with them. We were there for a week last summer and fell in love with the village and the people in it so we were eager to be reunited with them. One thing that amazed me this week was being able to witness the strength of relationships built in Christ. It is incredible to see the impact people can have on one another regardless of not seeing each other for a year or even speaking the same language. Though Cassie and I had only been there for a week last year, I was surprised how much it felt as if we had just seen the friends we made there and that we were able to pick up right where we left off. Opportunities were given to help make these relationships stronger and on a deeper level and these could only have happened with God. Kids came running over to us calling us by name (even if it was Jackie Chan) and greeted us with huge hugs everywhere we went.

I know that there is often a negative connotation that goes along with short-term mission trips and at times, I can understand why. However, when these trips are done right and those serving are doing it out of mutual respect and with a heart to follow wherever God is leading them, these trips can be life changing both for those coming to serve and those living in the community. I believe that some mission trips are done out of a desire to check serving off a list in order to make one feel like they have done their good for the week, month, or year, to provide a confidence boost in feeling as though they improved someone else’s life. However, coming to a community for a week and building a house, working in the schools, having a vbs, etc. then leaving without truly investing in the community is not beneficial. Though those are good things, they should be done in order to provide a means to spread God’s love and build relationships as that is the way to project real change. In working with CALMS, they ensure that you are working alongside of community members rather than doing things all yourself and leaving them with no means to continue once you leave. You work with those from the community, knowing that they have much to teach you.

Hales Corners (the church group this week) loves this community well and comes 3-4 times a year. On this particular trip, they provided a dental clinic, did some house visits, and had a vacation bible school in the afternoon for the kids. The people in the village know that they are loved and cared for by this church and because of it, lives are being changed on both ends. With God in the middle of it, we were able to clearly see Him working all around us this week.  Here are a few of my favorite God moments from the week:

VBS- We had about 100 kids show up for VBS this week. Every day we began by singing worship songs which was my favorite part. I just love seeing that innocent trust and faith of a child as they belt out the words while singing to Jesus. The fact that so many of them were participating in singing along just goes to show that they have been going to VBS and/or church long enough to actually learn something which gives me hope and fills me with joy. Kids truly are the future and investing in them is important. Building off a foundation of Christ and growing up in the faith gives them great potential in positively impacting their village in the future.

Every day at VBS it can be a little nuts because there are 100 excited kids at once in a small place. This would be the same with kids regardless of where you were in the world. Kids are kids and with that many, it tends to be a bit chaotic at times. Because they are constantly moving around and because more and more keep coming throughout the day, there is no easy way to get a count of how many are there in order to tell Nilss when he goes to buy the snack. Instead he just has to go with his best guess. On this particular day, I was helping to hand out the snack. We were getting close to running out but then as I got to the last child, I handed them the very last package of cookies. We had EXACTLY enough for every child. Though it may not sound like a big deal, I got chills right away when I realized this because it just shows that God is involved in every single detail of our lives, a fact I tend to forget. He loves his children so much that He cares down to the very last detail, even as small as ensuring that every child receives cookies. What’s even crazier is that this is not the first time I’ve seen this happen but the same thing happened in my trips to La Fragua several times. I guess you could call it a coincidence, but to see this very thing happen three different times seems to me to clearly be God’s hand at work.

House Visits-While on house visits, we would go into someone’s house, chat for a bit and get to know them better, ask if there was anything we could pray for with them, pray, read a bible verse and present them with a bible. We went to one house with a woman who said that her and her family had just started going to church recently. She asked for prayers that they would have strong faith as they continued to grow. When we gave her a bible, she was very grateful and excited. She said that ever since she has been going to church, she has been praying and asking God for a bible because she didn’t have one and He had answered that prayer in us. It’s pretty awesome to see God provide for us through one another. Once again, I am just blown away by the huge puzzle that is God’s plan and the way that we are all intertwined in order to complete it. His plan is WAY over my head but I’m thankful that He allows us to see little glimpses of tiny parts of it.

Those are only two of the many ways I saw God this week. Being removed from all of the daily distractions of being back home, it seems that my eyes can more obviously see Him everywhere and I love that about being here. It’s just what I needed. It’s exciting to see Him lead me and equip me whether that means giving me enough guts to help take out someone’s wisdom teeth or being able to somehow know enough Spanish with Cassie to translate on a house visit when our translator wasn’t there.

Being an American, I tend to want to see results right away and to get answers the second I have a question. One thing I often wonder is why God chose to bring me here this summer. There is nothing that I’m really adding that couldn’t continue without me, in fact a person that speaks Spanish fluently could be a lot more effective than I am on so many levels. But I think that through being here, being re-immersed into this much slower pace life and not having all the answers, God is forcing me to totally lean on Him. He’s also changing my perception of a mission trip as I learn more and more how it looks like to just BE rather than DO. Though I often feel like I’m not adding anything, I’m learning to be open and willing to serve in whatever opportunity I am presented with, which could be spending an entire afternoon just sitting and chatting with someone. I will never be able to see the entirety of what part I play in His plan but I do trust that for some reason, being here is at least aiding a little bit in completing that plan and by that, I’m humbled.

Keep your eyes open for God, watch for his works; be alert for signs of his presence. Psalm 105:4

So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you. Romans 12:1-2

Adventure is Out There!!

Put your entire trust in the Master Jesus. Then you’ll live as you were meant to live. Acts 16:31

“I don't always know where this life is going. I can't see the end of the road, but here is the great part: Courage is not about knowing the path. It is about taking the first step. It is about Peter getting out of the boat, stepping out onto the water with complete faith that Jesus will not let him drown.” -Katie Davis

Jesus said, “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat-I am.” Luke 9:23

God doesn’t want us to be shy with his gifts, but BOLD, and loving  and sensible. 2 Timothy 1:7

This past year I have spent a good amount of time praying about the future. (As a lot of people in their last year of college do) The past five years have been dedicated to preparing me to be ready for the future and somehow it got here so much faster than I anticipated it would. As a freshmen, looking to this time in my life I thought I’d have it all figured out by now. I’d graduate with my Masters in education, get a job, and start teaching. But it’s funny how God likes to throw loopholes into our plans. While I am absolutely loving student teaching and fully believe that this is the profession that God wants me to be in, lately I’ve felt a sense of discontent in the thought of starting that right away.  I can’t shake the feeling that instead God is leading me down a bit of a different path for now.                                                                          

 I have loved every second of college and if I really stop to think about how in a few months I won’t be in this place anymore surrounded by some of the people I love the most, I get close to having a bit of an emotional breakdown. I think that God has placed certain people into my life for a reason and given me experiences that have helped to draw me closer to Him and shape me little by little to be closer to the person that He has created me to be. He’s taken me places I never thought I’d go and given me chances to see Him do incredible things.                                                

 He got me out of my comfort zone when He called me to work my first summer away at camp in Indiana, teaching me that His plans far surpass those of my own. The next summer on the Blackfeet Indian Reservation in Heart Butte, Montana, He showed me that He will ALWAYS come through when I need Him, providing me with just what I need at just the right time. He gave me patience and wisdom beyond what I could fathom and provided me with a support system of a family on the rez when I needed one most being so far from my real family. In Guatemala, He reminded me that to fully trust Him means to actually give up my little sphere of control, completely surrender and believe that He’s got this covered. Then just when I was dumb enough to think He was taking a bit of a break in my life (because I was too blinded to see Him at work all around me, all the time), He decided He’d show up in some pretty big ways again. I’m thankful that I have a God who is willing to make His works obvious enough that no matter what, I can’t miss them because I can be pretty oblivious sometimes. Never would I have ever imagined that He’d allow me to be one of His instruments at the Crossing, getting the opportunity to love and serve His children alongside one of my best friends.                                                          

 Holy moly, it’s crazy to think that the Creator of the universe knows me intimately enough to know that one of the things I struggle with in my life the most is fully and completely trusting Him with every aspect of my life. And knowing this, He knows that unless I have opportunities to practice that trust ALL the time, I will lose it completely. So, instead He puts these crazy chances to trust Him in my life all the time, and then I fail at them, and then He STILL keeps giving them to me. So here’s the newest little trust exercise He’s decided to throw my way…I’M GOING TO AFRICA!                                                                                                                      

 I’ll be leaving next year, January 11, 2016 and will be staying for 6 months through a program called Immersion through Experience Mission. I will travel with a team of 7-14 people that are between the ages of 18-30 and our time will be split between South Africa, Lesotho, and Namibia. While there I will be living with host families and working alongside already established service partners doing things such as working at a disabilities center, running vacation bible schools, helping out at the schools, and serving wherever needed. I’ve been told that I could be eating the same food day after day, sleeping on the floor on a mat, and bathing in the river. The scariest part is the thought of having to fit EVERYTHING for 6 months in one backpack…This alone seems nearly impossible since I do not have a history of being the lightest packer. But while all of this seems absolutely terrifying at times, I’m really pumped to see what God is going to do through it. He's never failed me yet so I know He won't now, somehow He's going to make me brave. I’m not going because the people there need me, because they definitely do not. In fact, I probably need them more than they need me. But I’m going because I think that God is going to use this to work in my life and grow my personal faith in amazing ways. The fact that while He is doing that, He will also choose to work through me to minister to the people there, blows my mind. I don’t deserve this opportunity to be His hands and feet because I can never possibly measure up but I know that regardless, He will use my insignificant self anyway and that alone is going to change me.        

I have also felt that God has placed it on my heart to return to Guatemala. He's doing big things there, His love is spreading like crazy, and I want to  be a part of it. Since St. Marks has such strong ties with CALMS (Central American Lutheran Mission Society) already and returns there twice a year, I feel like it is really beneficial to continue to invest in that country. I was very much blessed by my time there, having my faith greatly impacted by the friends I've made there and I want those relationships to continue to grow. Since I will not be leaving for Africa until next year, this means I will be free from May when I finish student teaching to January when I leave. So, I think I am going to return to Guatemala for the summer again!                                                                 

 I know that some people have trouble understanding foreign missions because there is so much work to be done right where we are and I completely agree with that 100%. But I also believe that God makes us all different, giving us different interests, passions, personalities, and dreams. And for some reason, He put in me a heart for missions. I think that He did this for a reason and because of it, I feel responsible to give it some attention, using the gifts He has given me to follow His purpose. There are ministries here at home that God has equipped others to do, that I could never do. It’s awesome to think about how intricately we are created to all work together to fulfill the ultimate plan of bringing the light of Jesus to this broken world. I have NO idea what I will possibly be contributing to that plan in Africa but I trust that He is going to use this experience for His good.                                                                                           

 Right now, it all just seems super far away so I don’t feel like it’s real but I know that it will be here soon enough. In the waiting, I know that I will have plenty of fears and doubts (in fact, they’ve already started creeping up) so I ask that you support me by praying for me, asking God to shower me with the confidence and peace that only He can give. I also pray that I don’t lose sight of all that He is doing around me while I’m still here, remembering that His timing is perfect. I am SO excited for this next adventure!!  

 

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